sorrow heart ache
eased by the cool breeze
a brain wrinkle free
wiped clean
to find the world new again
but it is only temporary
with an exhalation exchange
revealing the soft barrier
trying to hold back a root
the barrier breaks
a hollow root
leaves me unfulfilled
I no longer want what I desire
its form is wicked and wasted
it burns me with its touch
but my desire compels me
it lingers inside
giving life to root...
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Oddmorningtime, but you know all about that.
Not yet Edited...
There were soldiers that stood guard at a wall, a very tall wall. It was something I was seeing on television. I knew that it was television, but as I watched it there was nothing of me left, The screen was my new eyes and my identity was useless in this world. There were many soldiers standing shoulder to shoulder. Light blue uniforms with dark berets. Something happened, something that cause the soldiers to stir to action. Like a film I saw the movement from multiple angles, hands reaching for weapons innocuously hidden in what looked like binocular bags. One of the soldiers shot another soldier. The question of betrayal, but it felt like the betrayal was of the dead soldier's doing. The other soldiers ran to the gate of the wall. A gate that seemed to have not top and opened like elevator doors,Suddenly there was a prisoner of these soldiers, that they had placed in a hole in the wall, so he was suspended with his legs sticking out. They ordered him to pull apart the cheeks of his ass. And when he did this a pile of rocks and dirt fell out. Then another man fell out. He was naked and old. He had a mustache and a tattoo on his upper left arm. The man in the wall was dead. Death was weird though, he was deflated and bloody, and the wall seemed to eat what was left of him. The soldiers were now more interested in this other man, a new prisoner. They stood around him shouting at him. It became unclear what happened to him next, but the guards stepped away from him and he was deflated and bloody. And then the wall ate him too. I had finally come back into existence and was disgusted by the cruelties of humans. Their treatment of others in what they felt were totally justified actions. It was snowing outside, again. I sighed and turned off the television. I was then shocked to find Ted sitting next to me. Smiling at me like he had not at all seen what was on the television. “How was Denver?” Ted asked.
“Good, but it snowed there too.” I replied with the sudden recollection of a trip. A thousand spotted memories came to me of the road, but nothing was concrete in my mind, only the snow, and only the deaths of two prisoners and a soldier. I then woke up. Confused and sore, I had fallen asleep and left a movie playing all night on repeat, it was playing in Japanese and there was a dutch man speaking. I looked at my phone to see what time it was....six in the morning. I looked at the window and found out it was snowing, again. Still tired, and still sore, I decided to not get up quite yet. I turned off the television and went back to sleep. Then I awoke again, this time there was no snow outside, but it was still cold. I repeated my actions, I looked at my phone to see what time it was....8:45. The television was still going, but now it was playing in English with the dutch man still speaking, subtitles that were not matching with what was being said. I once again turn it off, and layed down to think about my dreams.
There were soldiers that stood guard at a wall, a very tall wall. It was something I was seeing on television. I knew that it was television, but as I watched it there was nothing of me left, The screen was my new eyes and my identity was useless in this world. There were many soldiers standing shoulder to shoulder. Light blue uniforms with dark berets. Something happened, something that cause the soldiers to stir to action. Like a film I saw the movement from multiple angles, hands reaching for weapons innocuously hidden in what looked like binocular bags. One of the soldiers shot another soldier. The question of betrayal, but it felt like the betrayal was of the dead soldier's doing. The other soldiers ran to the gate of the wall. A gate that seemed to have not top and opened like elevator doors,Suddenly there was a prisoner of these soldiers, that they had placed in a hole in the wall, so he was suspended with his legs sticking out. They ordered him to pull apart the cheeks of his ass. And when he did this a pile of rocks and dirt fell out. Then another man fell out. He was naked and old. He had a mustache and a tattoo on his upper left arm. The man in the wall was dead. Death was weird though, he was deflated and bloody, and the wall seemed to eat what was left of him. The soldiers were now more interested in this other man, a new prisoner. They stood around him shouting at him. It became unclear what happened to him next, but the guards stepped away from him and he was deflated and bloody. And then the wall ate him too. I had finally come back into existence and was disgusted by the cruelties of humans. Their treatment of others in what they felt were totally justified actions. It was snowing outside, again. I sighed and turned off the television. I was then shocked to find Ted sitting next to me. Smiling at me like he had not at all seen what was on the television. “How was Denver?” Ted asked.
“Good, but it snowed there too.” I replied with the sudden recollection of a trip. A thousand spotted memories came to me of the road, but nothing was concrete in my mind, only the snow, and only the deaths of two prisoners and a soldier. I then woke up. Confused and sore, I had fallen asleep and left a movie playing all night on repeat, it was playing in Japanese and there was a dutch man speaking. I looked at my phone to see what time it was....six in the morning. I looked at the window and found out it was snowing, again. Still tired, and still sore, I decided to not get up quite yet. I turned off the television and went back to sleep. Then I awoke again, this time there was no snow outside, but it was still cold. I repeated my actions, I looked at my phone to see what time it was....8:45. The television was still going, but now it was playing in English with the dutch man still speaking, subtitles that were not matching with what was being said. I once again turn it off, and layed down to think about my dreams.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Staircase
We walk with the reflections of
streetlights looking up at us from puddles
an uncomfortable pace.
A guided tour of the passing of time
You talk about her like she is dead
recalling childhood, a strange lilting tune
you tell me of sneaking out to go buy lemon soda
you tell me about smores, and rooftops, and mudfights
you talk about her like she is dead
the tune lingers on your lips
you are giving a eulogy
I twice again let the phone ring
because even though I judge you
I am no better
you communicate with the dead
and I ignore the living
I don't know how to tell you
that I am powerless
I can only make things worse
that you are alone
to fight off the demons
of a hurt mind
but I truly feel that I can do no good
not for her
not all wounds heal
I am afraid
this might
be one
streetlights looking up at us from puddles
an uncomfortable pace.
A guided tour of the passing of time
You talk about her like she is dead
recalling childhood, a strange lilting tune
you tell me of sneaking out to go buy lemon soda
you tell me about smores, and rooftops, and mudfights
you talk about her like she is dead
the tune lingers on your lips
you are giving a eulogy
I twice again let the phone ring
because even though I judge you
I am no better
you communicate with the dead
and I ignore the living
I don't know how to tell you
that I am powerless
I can only make things worse
that you are alone
to fight off the demons
of a hurt mind
but I truly feel that I can do no good
not for her
not all wounds heal
I am afraid
this might
be one
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
A dash of disgust
I am
tired of a world
that complains
that worries
that talks of problems
and resolves them with
inaction
fuck you
noble warriors
your ideals
are only a rationalization
for yourself
attempts to
make peace with the fact
that you have so much
while there are those with
so little
teeth scar your elbows
as you shove
beliefs
down throats
tired of a world
that complains
that worries
that talks of problems
and resolves them with
inaction
fuck you
noble warriors
your ideals
are only a rationalization
for yourself
attempts to
make peace with the fact
that you have so much
while there are those with
so little
teeth scar your elbows
as you shove
beliefs
down throats
A short length of wire
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Phobetor
I gaze upon a white horse
its shape, carefully outlined by the charcoal night
black embrace, only reaching the edge of his skin
he shines defiant in the dark
the moon receives from him
borrowing brilliance
I look into his eyes
and I see fear, and I see pain
A look betrays his majesty
quiet sadness
I reach out, placing my hand on his warm skin
remaining still, I can feel life
flowing, beneath my fingers
Fear dissipates
his eyes
now distant from me
have a secret to share
but as all deities obey
mortals never understand
I lift my hand from the rich white sand
as if freed from some tether
he runs
a beacon of light
fighting off,
shadows at night
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